so this is basically an update for gravi, my upcoming game.

so far i’ve got a working moving character (not a big deal for YOU maybe, but you don’t know how long it’s took me to make), three enemies and a nice little laser beam thing. the gravity shift is working so far and i haven’t found any bugs as of yet! one major thing though is improving on the visuals. a lot of the images i have right now are just place-holders until i can make them look nice and come up with a good visual style.

a big problem i’m having is with drawing text and such. i’ve never done it before so i’m having a hard time with that. i’ve got it working somewhat, but the text is fixed in place. i’m also going to buy game maker pro edition. it’s only £10 and i’ll be able to do a lot more with it.

but lately i’ve been distracted with the noitu love 2 demo and i’m currently downloading the aquaria demo to see what it’s like. i’ve heard good things.

well, a few things to note.

firstly, the golden compass is out today in the UK. the film i have anticipated for years and years since i first read northern lights, it’s finally out! i can’t wait to go see it. has anyone seen it yet? bastards.

ps:

okay, i’m going to say this once, and once only. i like the new killers single. yes, i know i know. it’s the killers. but it’s lou reed! their new single “tranquilize” is fantastic. it’s quirky and dark and nothing like the killers other stuff. it sounds fairly velvet underground-esque (but no where near as good obviously), and it’s really good. their voices go together really well. as much as i dislike the killers (i used to be a fan) this is worth a listen. there.

well, stats are back! haha, now i can see who’s looking at me… i used to obsess over them, so i’m quite happy. i doubt it’ll do as well as my other blog (like, 650 views a day) but i can always hope! it’s racked up 200 in the first day of recording stats so…

so me and a few friends have joined up to this site called LittleGolem.net. it allows you to play board games online. not in real time. so you just log on and play whenever you get the chance. it’s pretty cool! lemme know your usernames, and invite me to a game of chess or something. my user name is dicko and i have not played long.

anyway, i’m so behind on work, and i still haven’t finished my personal statement (due in last month) so i’m off, ta ta!

so this weekend has been certainly interesting. sort of.

well, saturday was really good. went to leigh’s house and met all of the family. that was pretty good. her brother is a big chav but that’s ok. apparently i got off lightly, be he wasn’t so bad. i also ate delicious cakes and hash brown sandwiches. lovely. we watched dvd’s and then left earlier than usual as leigh and co. were going to a mcfly concert. haha. i had a good time, that’s what mattered.

anyway, when i finally got home, i went to liams. i was feeling ill all day, but i felt alright at liams. so i got to drinking with the gang, smoking rollies with james and having a good laugh. but i felt really sick and was sick all over liams from drive. how lovely. sorry liam! i saw them all today and they mocked me :(. i was ill though!

sunday was composed of playing ocarina of time all day. i’m just up to adult link, with like 10 hearts. i’m awesome. i was sick a few times and had a can of lager with a chav. it was quite funny.

today leigh is in manchester, at some sort of art gig. i’m just hoping i can get some credit tonight to phone her.
so lately i’ve been listening to a LOT of dntel (in case you didn’t know, dntel is jimmy tamborello from the postal service) and i’ve found a fantastic song done with why? from cLOUDDEAD, one of my favourite… i’m tempted to say hip-hop but i won’t… bands. it’s brilliant. it is called torpedo or chrons, and can be found below. give it a listen.

i’m also going to be shameless and advertise the hype machine. basically it scans blogs for music and allows you to play the songs through a flash player on the site. excellent for work or at college. it’s free but i think you might need to register to listen to songs. find it at hypem.com. i use it every day to listen to music. the song can be found here. give it a listen. yes it’s hip hop, but it’s good hip-hop! i like to think of it as hip-hope.

well, not much to report on today really.

i’m definitely going to london on 20th of july. for a few days. that’s going to be hella awesome.

i need to speak to dom urgently about arrangements. if you see this dom, get in touch with me! i have a new phone number, ask mike or some other brit for it and text me or something.

yes, blogs to leave a message, excellent idea.

now, let’s talk about myspace. and how much of a bag of shit it is. really. creating a myspace page is essentially signing your life away to the devil; but not in that sense. no, it’s not addicting (though for some whelps it is), it’s just… UGH. you know, you put a picture of yourself up. great. then you look at other peoples pictures. and they think they’re models and edit their pictures. why? why can’t you put a picture up of yourself, naturally? don’t give me this bullshit about feeling better about yourself or making yourself look better, because if you were so insecure in the first place you wouldn’t put the picture up!  no, they do it for the attention. and why do you take them from such stupid angles people? always looking down. you do realise that that position represents a demeaning value to that person right? so by doing that, AND editing it, you’ve just fucked your image well and truly.

or at least i like to think so. sorry, i just don’t like people who LIVE on myspace and constantly edit all their pictures. please, show your natural self once in a while.

sorry for the lack of posts lately, i am now a man of PLEASURE and LEISURE, sorry.

but in all serious, not a whole lot as been happening. nothing to write about anyway. i had a really bad day yesterday, in which my other phone broke as well, and everything went wrong etc etc. today hasn’t been to bad. nothing to report really.

however, today is apparently monumental since gordon brown is now england’s new prime minister. england is well and truly fucked. please, someone tell me what this man has done that’s good. please.

on account of music. well, bright eyes is next FRIDAY people, can’t fucking wait. seriously need to know who’s supporting. SERIOUSLY. GOD SOMEONE TELL ME. but yeah. i can’t really check out any new releases. why? no fucking internet. it’s fucking killing me. someone want to donate theirs?

me and hen are fine, but she’s… well. i won’t go into it, but it’s a bit feminine. mhm. i’ll say no more in case she rips my head off again. love that girl i do.

also, HUZZAH over 10,000 views. wow.

ok, so markalan has tagged me. at first i wasn’t sure, but after reading his post, i figured i had to make 9 statements about myself, one of which is not true. try and guess which one!

ok, here in england we have key stages when going through school. at the end of each key stage you do an exam called SATs. now, at the end of key stage one, i was entered for my key stage 2 exam. 4 years ahead. i was the only one my teacher had ever entered for it. she had to bully the headteacher to let me do it.

i love the rain. it soothes me. you know, just sitting inside and hearing the rain on the outside, knowing some poor cunt is out there getting soaked, and you’re lovely and warm on the inside listening to sigur ros. which is perfect to go with rain.

i hate my mother. lots. i actually can’t stand the woman and anything she does annoys me. i don’t care that you know, she GAVE BIRTH to me or whatever, she’s a terrible mother and i just can’t wait to get away from her.

music! i adore music and will listen to anything from heavy metal to hip hop. my all time favourite genre is indie however, and i love it alot. i’ve been to lots of gigs and discover new bands daily (well, when i’m on the internet), and i love it.

i was once on a life support machine because i had a hole in my heart.

i’m secretly a major geek. i love anime and manga, i have collected magic the gathering trading cards, i’ve played d+d, i know how to code in several coding languages, i play computer games every day and have grew up with them, i’m on a course to create computer games for christ sake. well, not so much a secret really, haha.

i actually can’t stand myself for how i treat people and how i act around people. i can be a true monster, i really can. just awful. and i get upset about stupid things and i just can’ t get over the past. i also have a real problem with trust and jealousy.

me? i’m a complete coward. i’m scared of heights, spiders, insects, deep water, the dark and too much more. always have been. i’m definitely not a fighter.

i used to be able to play keyboard at a grade 4 standard. completely forgotten it now since i was in… year 10? so maybe 2-3 years ago.

so which one was the lie? well, take your guess.

so today’s been certainly interesting to say the least.

so it started out with my GENIUS plan starting, and the first step was to get a SIM card. so i walked all the way to the vodafone shop in the middle of town (a good half hour away) in my completely wrecked shoes. i mean seriously, these things have holes everywhere, and i’m practically walking on nothing but my socks, except with a sharp pain everytime i walk because of how the sole is. it’s crossed, and it hurts alot. so i walked all the way down, and paid a fiver for the SIM card. only i could have got it for free since they have a voucher thing which i didn’t find out until afterwards, in which they were reluctant to give me a free SIM. so there’s money gone.

anyways, i went to see grandma for a bit, and by now my feet were in really bad shape. i mean REALLY sore, close to bleeding etc. it wasn’t nice. i eventually make it home and sorted the phone out, all registered and what not, completely working. phase one gone, next step is sending it. but there i hit a snag, because my current phone now refuses to charge. at all. i mean it’s been dying for weeks now and usually refuses to charge, but it eventually works. only not this time. it’s now dead. completely. snap goes the plan. that really put me in a bad mood. that, and the fact that it was 3 years ago today (or around) that my grandad died. why am i so upset? i never got to say goodbye. he went to hospital and i never visited him. then i wake up one day and my mother tells me he’s gone. this blog title is about him.

anyways, i come here and talk to hen again. only she’s had a bad day too. so that’s not a good mix. we had a massive argument. but we’re fine now. we argue alot. but we love each other more. anyways, i managed to win at monopoly today. 3 other players and i bankrupt every single one without having to mortgage a single property. i love my phone.

and right now i can’t get enough of 65daysofstatic. and the tickets for bright eyes are booked, just need to book the coach now.

speaking of dates, about 2 years ago this time me and dominic embarked on a beautiful friendship that lasts to this day. so here’s a nice story, it’s a good one i promise!

ok, so i frequent an IRC (chat) network associated with a gaming website. but yes, this is where i met dom (who went by the internet alias of pot). anyways, i didn’t talk to him much but we would have the odd conversation every now and then. anyways, about then my internet got cut off (since i was ADDICTED) and wouldn’t return for months. when it did however, dom started talking to me, asking where i lived. i was curious, but i told him anyways. anyway, turns out he had been staying here for a weekend with his girlfriend. well! i was furious! he was down here and didn’t tell me so we didn’t meet up! god! anyway, he asked me if i knew an “alison brown”. of course, i’d known alison for years and sat next to her in english. turns out, that was his girlfriend. anyways, it hit off from there, and dom got me into alot of the music i’m into today! so yes, that is my good friend dominic.

okay, so on 7th and 8th july, i will be in birmingham again. firstly, to see bright eyes with henrietta. secondly, to spend time with henrietta. and dom, of course. yes, dom said it was alright to stay at his house on BOTH those days (what a great guy) so i’m all set! next up is money.

sorry for that post yesterday, everything was really getting to me. everything has been alright so far, i’ve been talking to hen a bit and i’ve managed to get sorted. but today is the major deadline, everything has to be in today, or else. and i’m working hard to finish everything off. i’ll have to come in next week of course, just to touch everything up, but if i can get the bulk of it done today, i should be alright. wish me luck!

there are some great new releases out so far, then some not so great leaks. like the new portugal. the man. its not that great. the new pornographers, and the few new tracks from animal collective’s album are great also. there’s also new iron & wine which is great, new minus the bear which i haven’t heard yet, new hell is for heroes (haven’t heard), and much much more. god i can’t wait to get home to get this. i miss the internet :(.

so um, this weekend was certainly interesting.

firstly, the worst part was that i’ve been completely down because of college and what’ll happen to me. i’m practically shitting myself in case i fail. thanks to henrietta for being there for me and looking after me. she’s been there for me throughout the weekend, no matter how shit i get. and i have been awful. right now i’m shitting myself that she’ll leave me, but then again what’s new?

saturday was pretty fun actually. it was the engagement party of my cousin, and all the family was there. some of which i hadn’t seen in years, such as my aunt joan and uncle mark and stuff. it was nice. everyone kept buying me drinks so i had about 11 and a half pints of lager amongst other stuff. so i did get quite a bit drunk!

next day i woke up feeling sick, and got dragged out to damo’s and then we played the game they made, based on WoW. it was pretty nifty, but it needed tweaking. then i had TWO barbeques to go to. that’s right, my aunt joan invited me there because they missed me or something. so off i went, feeling sick and the like, to there. i told her about henrietta, and she is the only member of my family who knows we’re going out. i think that’s pretty funny, neither of our families know the other exists (apart from her grandma who thinks we’re “very close friends”), but don’t go telling anyone! anyways, i also had my auntie beverly’s barbeque which i sat and drank cider. felt better afterwards actually. after that i phoned hen (after spending £15 on the phone) and for some reason it lasted like 5 hours. i enjoyed it, she tried to wax and failed, and got really scared bless her.

today’s shout out goes to mike (i love you mike robinson)

today i got a hate article about me! well, not so much hate as DO NOT FUCKING POST IN MY BLOG YOU CUNT. 

Link:  http://ahseow.wordpress.com/2007/06/07/i-repeat/

personally, i think this guys reaction is hilarious. he posted a joke which i thought was quite funny, so i posted a comment saying so. then i get this. i just love the vain attempts at insulting me as well. YOUR EMAIL IS GROSS. I AM NOT INTERESTED IF YOU ARE HOMO etc. sure, i respect if he doesn’t want me to comment his blog or whatever (that was the only time i’d look at the blog anyway), but way to build a fucking tower to touch the sky.

i won’t be able to phone hen tonight, that pisses me off.

college is nearly over! i’ve nearly finished all my work, and i can’t fucking wait. i’m sat here listening to an old love of mine (in the back seat - the arcade fire) and i can’t wait to be back in birmingham. this summer will be so hectic. i have a britmeet to go to (lots of online friends are meeting in london to play games and drink lots and have a barbeque) as well as a two week long party which will absolutely kill me. hen is coming down for a week and i hope to go there for a few days too. i need a fucking job and money fast. but first i need my internet back. and i am still ill.

congrats on this blog getting over 3,000 views! i feel so special.

all hate posts welcomed. be sure to link to my blog, put my name and email, make snide comments about me and don’t forget to tell me where to go!

also i am going to do a shoutout to a different person each post. today’s shout out goes to henrietta.