that i have been doing some drawings recently, and you can find them here: http://iwasanoptimistonce.wordpress.com/

in other news, i have been really down lately. it’s a mixture of the mean reds (see: breakfast at tiffany’s) and constant paranoia, which has become a big problem for me lately. i don’t know, i just don’t feel like i can talk about it to anyone without being judged or told how wrong i am. but it’s more how i feel, and i’m not sure what to do.

another problem i’m having is being socially confident. when i first moved to leeds i could talk to anyone and i had a bit of self confidence for the first time in forever and whatnot, all was good. lately i struggle to hold a conversation with anyone, and i’m not sure why.

anyway, i am making a book of my drawings, and i am very excited about it. my friend is playing a gig in america, and said he will take some over to sell and try and get a few american followers. which is brilliant news! i am super excited about that.

now, my course. i’ve been considering changing my course for a few reasons. the university i’m at isn’t exactly RENOWNED for anything apart from sports, which means the rest of the departments there (especially computer related) are very lax about things, and i don’t feel that i’m learning anything. however, i am only a first year, so i will probably stick it out to next year and see how that goes. there has been no mention of anything computer games related as yet, which is a bit annoying as i don’t really want to learn how to make movies (which is good fun, but wrong course maybe?). i think it is because they are assessing what level we are all at, and trying to get us all at the same level. which poses a few problems for me, mainly because i have done the course for nearly three years now. so yeah.

we shall see how that goes anyway. i am still surviving somehow. today i have done nothing much, apart from to see my friend ian. had a nice chat, about his course, which seems very intense. sort of wish my course was a bit like that, but at the same time i don’t. i don’t know, i’m not in the best state of mind at the moment.

i didn’t intend for this to be as depressing as it came out, but at least i’m blogging. check out the drawings, and let me know what you think of them eh?