despite it all, i still want it to happen.

so i’m sat here in bed contemplating what to do with the week ahead.

this week has been incredible. and it’s also been horrible, but i’ll get on to that later.

i’ve been going out a lot recently, and this week especially, i’ve been going out in fancy dress. tuesday i went out dressed as a surgeon (pretty unoriginal) but friday i went dressed as a woman. that was pretty fun. last night i had an amazing night shared with amazing company. a civilised evening of dinner, banter, and cards. my face still hurts from laughing.

on a sadder note, i found out why the girl i like has been really awkward with me lately. it’s not good. now i can’t talk to her properly without wondering if she wants to talk to me or if she just wants space or whatever. i must find out, but i don’t know. i’ve been really down about it. plus i think she probably likes someone else, it was bound to happen. ugh, i hate love.