why am i such an awful person? i hate myself. i just can’t accept things, and i can’t forget the past and move on. it keeps coming up over and over and upsetting people. people that mean the fucking world to me. i hate myself when i’m like that.

lately i haven’t posted, sorry! i really haven’t had much to say other then “HI IM ADAM AND I TALKED TO HEN” really. sure i’ve thought about blogging, but when it came to it i had nothing to say really. camel spider and camel spiders eh?

oh, new circa survive album? brilliant.

maybe.

today i went out to club and saw all my friends there. had a good few games of risk and stuff, the usual.

then there was a family barbeque. that was fun as well. i ate and drank lots.

that was my day. how interesting.

so i had no idea what to write about today, so my lovely wife told me to write about her, so here we go.

i first met henrietta on HABBO HOTEL (as pathetic as it is), after i decided to go back on it to annoy people after years of not being on it. this was about 10 months ago. anyways, i met her there then we added each other on myspace and msn (as you do) and we just hit it off from there. after a while of her forgetting i even existed, i phoned her up one time and we just became great friends. lots of ups and downs, one drunken night, we finally admitted our feelings for one another (which wasn’t that strong at the time, but it was still love!) but due to the distance, i never asked her out (she wanted to go out with me for agessss, and kept giving me the hint, but i never took it :( ). anyways, on december 16th, at precisely 00:34, i asked her out, and she said yes. after some stupid months and being hurt, breaking up lots and her cheating on me lots, i finally visited her (as seen in the blog!). we’re still together after over 5 months. great huh?

henrietta is absolutely gorgeous. and incredible sexy. one of the reasons i’m going out with her is just how gorgeous she is (sorry for being shallow). she has a great personality. amazing. one would say we are perfectly suited for each other since we can just talk about anything for hours and hours and hours. oh, and we turn each other on so much. hen just strives to make me happy (and she does make me very happy). yes, we are DEEPLY in love! however, i’ve come to realise just how easily it is for me to upset her, since she cares about me so much and she takes everything to heart bless her. i would love to make her happy someday, that’s all she deserves.

so a history of hen! she was born in milton keynes in 1992, then moved to hove and then to shoreham, brighton, where she lived until she was 13. then she moved to lichfield with her dad and two step-sisters, where she lives today. that’s all i’ll write, since i don’t want to put anything here that she doesn’t want!

hen loves: star trek, coheed and cambria, sonata arctica, food, water, getting drunk, and sex.

and that’s my darling wife who i love lots.

lots to talk about, but it probably won’t be a long blog entry.

why i love my friends: because we can talk about absolute shit. today we were talking about why fanny farts don’t smell, and why you would even smell them anyway. we talk about absolute anything and we laugh alot. all in all it’s great. i was drinking water and matty said something about if you were near a fanny fart you’d have no eyebrows left. suddenly the water was coming out my nose. i laughed and laughed, and had lots of water dribbling out of my nose. i’d never done that before! amazing!

henrietta upset me last night. don’t want to go into it really. but everything’s clear.

are you a hot blogger? whilst browsing the blogosphere i’ve noticed there are three different categories bloggers come under: old/uninteresting people talking about uninteresting subjects, ugly bloggers and hot bloggers. by hot i mean attractive (sorry to be so american). this came about when i read an article about wanting to be gorgeous, or people telling you that you are. everyone loves it. but the person who was writing this was really attractive, i don’t get it. if one person out there who is a stranger comments on your looks in a positive way, take the hint! then i am a giant hypocrite, because i hate everything about the way i look.

is wordpress the new myspace? well, no, not really. but sometimes it is. i mean, look on the dashboard. they have all those “recently posted” articles, which are sort of like bulletins. only ten times better. i think i had a point with this but i forgot about it. oh yeah, blogging is better then myspace. with blogs you can get all your whimsical shit out on the net without being called “emo”. also, comments are so much more in depth. basically, it’s better or something. i don’t know, i’m quite confused.

why do i blog? well, i believe that everyone has a story, and that it should be read by someone out there. god knows if you agree with this, but it’s my opinion. this is my story really, and you reading it? HA! i got you!

oh, guitar hero 3 has finally been announced. track list is up and everything.

The game’s initial list of songs include:
* Paint It Black (by The Rolling Stones)
* Cherub Rock (by Smashing Pumpkins)
* Sabotage (by Beastie Boys)
* The Metal (by Tenacious D)
* My Name is Jonas (by Weezer)
* Knights of Cydonia (by Muse)
* Rock And Roll All Nite (as made famous by Kiss)
* School’s Out (as made famous by Alice Cooper)
* Slow Ride (as made famous by Fog Hat)
* Cult of Personality (by Living Colour)
* Barracuda (as made famous by Heart)

sounds good.

MUSIC. i actually adore music, though you wouldn’t be able to tell reading this blog. if you have a slightly similar music taste to me i could talk for hours.

yesterday i saw a video of yndi halda live. yndi halda are an amazing post-rock/indie band from england (where all the best post-rock is from… ahem). it is now my mission to see this band live before i die. they are FANTASTIC. i recommend this band to everyone. their only release, “enjoy eternal bliss” is incredible. energetic yet soft. GET IT.

what am i looking forward to most this year? sigur rós’s new album. seriously, if i ever make love to an inanimate object, it’ll be that cd. their previous release, takk…, i’ve listened through about 200 times, hopipolla even more.

ok i’ve ran out of things to say, it’s hard for me to type when noone responds. hen is still ill, and i can’t take any more of this heat. global warming indeed. i just hope i get to talk to her tonight. i’ve basically been unable to work again due to the heat. i’m sweating like a madman.

i hate college when it gets like this. seriously, they’ve practically let us be all laid back and shit throughout the year, now they’ve piled EVERYTHING on us. we have so much work to do. and like 2 weeks to do it.

i’m practically spent up again. i keep delaying my trip to birmingham again every week, since i spend it on my phone to talk to hen. it’s getting ridiculous, as i’m putting like £30 a week on my phone alone. need to stop it! not that i don’t love talking to her, but i’d much rather see her then talk to her on the phone. she’s also a bit down at the moment, which is rather bad for me! i don’t care though, i’ll put up with it.

had some interesting conversations today. mainly about the male prostate gland. matty seems to believe that tickling it will make the male spaff instantly. i don’t believe this but it would be hilarious. considering it’s in the arse, it makes sense why gay sex is popular, since otherwise it would be ouch. though girls don’t have one, so why do they enjoy it? hmm. ah well.

i’m going to make an attempt to find NEW PEOPLE on the internet to talk to, so if you have MSN, hit me up. iamnothomo@gmail.com is mine. i only use MSN for now though, but if you have myspace too add me on that, i’d be happy to talk. http://www.myspace.com/dickoxcore is my profile. with a lovely picture :). smashing.

i realise that i don’t actually talk about anything interesting in my blog, sorry!

http://www.smashbros.com/en_us/index.html

the official site of super smash bros. brawl, with daily updates, new screenshots and lots more.

check out the composers, they are excellent. definitely can’t wait for this game.

ok, so this is about james’s friend james and his friend. if you’re still with me you’re going to love this…

so two of his friends were doing mushrooms at a park somewhere. where, who cares, but they were doing it. only james 2 got bored so he went home and sobered up, leaving his friend in the park, tripping. lovely. after a while, when he was sober, he decided to pay his friend a visit to make sure he was okay. so at his friends house, his friend was still very much under the effects. he was wielding a knife and screaming “i’ve locked a goblin in the wardrobe! i’ve caught a goblin! i’m gonna kill it! i’m gonna kill it!”. james tried to calm his friend down, and looked in the wardrobe. there, in the wardrobe, was a small child with (apparent) downs syndrome. panicking, they decided to take it back to the park where his friend had apparently kidnapped it and locked it in the wardrobe.

if you’ve ever needed a reason not to do drugs, i think this qualifies as a good one.

http://www.blizzard.com/

http://www.starcraft2.com/

“Hell, it’s about time”

you said it blizzard, you twats. took you long enough didn’t it?

this is true, but i’ll come to that later.

this weekend was spent at home on the phone. to my darling wife. and she’s very hormonal. god, i hope i didn’t make her pregnant. this is plaguing me so badly, i really REALLY hope i didn’t make her pregnant. i have no idea what we would do if she was.

i went to kelvins on saturday, which was great. we went to tesco and got id’d (both of us) for a 15 rated movie. jet li’s fearless. i thought it was ridiculous, and it was also hilarious because it was james’s ex-girlfriend who id’d us. apparently she was always like that.

we bought chinese food and then went to kelvins. which was quite fun.

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