that i have been doing some drawings recently, and you can find them here: http://iwasanoptimistonce.wordpress.com/

in other news, i have been really down lately. it’s a mixture of the mean reds (see: breakfast at tiffany’s) and constant paranoia, which has become a big problem for me lately. i don’t know, i just don’t feel like i can talk about it to anyone without being judged or told how wrong i am. but it’s more how i feel, and i’m not sure what to do.

another problem i’m having is being socially confident. when i first moved to leeds i could talk to anyone and i had a bit of self confidence for the first time in forever and whatnot, all was good. lately i struggle to hold a conversation with anyone, and i’m not sure why.

anyway, i am making a book of my drawings, and i am very excited about it. my friend is playing a gig in america, and said he will take some over to sell and try and get a few american followers. which is brilliant news! i am super excited about that.

now, my course. i’ve been considering changing my course for a few reasons. the university i’m at isn’t exactly RENOWNED for anything apart from sports, which means the rest of the departments there (especially computer related) are very lax about things, and i don’t feel that i’m learning anything. however, i am only a first year, so i will probably stick it out to next year and see how that goes. there has been no mention of anything computer games related as yet, which is a bit annoying as i don’t really want to learn how to make movies (which is good fun, but wrong course maybe?). i think it is because they are assessing what level we are all at, and trying to get us all at the same level. which poses a few problems for me, mainly because i have done the course for nearly three years now. so yeah.

we shall see how that goes anyway. i am still surviving somehow. today i have done nothing much, apart from to see my friend ian. had a nice chat, about his course, which seems very intense. sort of wish my course was a bit like that, but at the same time i don’t. i don’t know, i’m not in the best state of mind at the moment.

i didn’t intend for this to be as depressing as it came out, but at least i’m blogging. check out the drawings, and let me know what you think of them eh?

i think you should listen to sprites. they’re fantastic.

what a ride.well, it’s been too long, and so much has happened i don’t know where to begin. so i’ll just write what i can.one of my friends died. victoria lawrence, aged 19, trainee nurse. she was the kindest person i have ever met, and i miss her terribly. her funeral was a few days before christmas, and i have never cried so much in my life. it was nice to see everyone though, despite the circumstances. i hope that doesn’t make me sound like a dick.

my friends nestor and joel put on an annual day festival, and this time around was magical. the bands were brilliant, and i met so many people. there was an after party too, which obviously was amazing. i made so many new friends and spent the entire time talking to people. it was one of the most magical days of my life.

christmas was pretty dull. usual arguments in the family and whatnot, not a whole lot to say about it really.new year i came back to leeds. it was really fun, we all went to the brudenell, which is a pretty small venue in leeds but one of the best i’ve ever been to. the music was terrible but i was surrounded by lovely people. it was great.

my friend kerry went to australia and is now back, and she brought back some amazing photos. i will try and steal them and put them up somewhere, she’s quite the photographer.

my birthday was excellent, my friends had a “scottish” meal (it was vegetarian, but hey) and that was lovely, and then they held a suprise birthday party for me. it was really something.i am super low on money, but i am somehow surviving. i put it down to lauren.

i am in a band! we are called this many boyfriends, and so far our only song involves the band playing music with one of the vocalists telling a story. it’s called “nicky’s storytime”. i play the guitar, well, i say play, but it’s really not playing.

i have done some drawings, which i don’t think are very good but i think i will probably try and make a book out of them. if you want, you can find them here: http://s182.photobucket.com/albums/x126/asyrus/art/

also, join the facebook group: http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=44538249319&ref=ts

i received a lovely message from someone about my blog, which i have yet to reply to. needless to say i had sort of forgotten about blogging, and quite a lot has happened, i just haven’t had the time really, but i will try and be a good blogger to the four of you who stumble upon this looking for camel spiders.peace and fucking. 

where i talk about lots of cool music and stuff. so far there’s only 3 posts, but i’m working hard on updating it!

one of my friends has gone to australia for 2-3 months, which i’m quite upset about. though i’m so excited for her and i hope she has an amazing time!

my life around music - yet another wordpress music blog.

wow, what a week it’s been?

yeah, i’ve spent a lot of time with lauren, my best friend. i don’t know if i’ve ever spoken about her. she’s incredible, she’s pretty much me but a GIRL (contrary to popular belief, i am not a girl, no matter what the pictures say). over the past week we’ve both been really down but have managed to cheer each other up by singing along to terrible songs and of course the fabulous friends we have. i owe her a lot for introducing me to such excellent people.

for anyone still following this, i have a new interest. yeah, still haven’t given up on girls. can’t reveal much as she doesn’t know i like her, and my chances are slim i reckon. but we’ll see. but yeah, she’s wonderful. that’s all you need to know. i’ll keep you posted on how it goes.

in other news, i am djing on thursday at tiger trap #2, a wonderful event put on by lauren and nestor (and ross). generally two bands will play and then djing until late. this time they’re putting on PARENTHETICAL GIRLS. that’s right, one of my favourite bands ever. if anyone is reading this from the leeds area, get yourself to trash on 20th november. £5 in. yeah, it’s set to be a good night! i’m very excited. it also means that i have some lovely posters for free. yum.

DRAMA.

it’s finally time for me to move on.

so i’m sat here in bed contemplating what to do with the week ahead.

this week has been incredible. and it’s also been horrible, but i’ll get on to that later.

i’ve been going out a lot recently, and this week especially, i’ve been going out in fancy dress. tuesday i went out dressed as a surgeon (pretty unoriginal) but friday i went dressed as a woman. that was pretty fun. last night i had an amazing night shared with amazing company. a civilised evening of dinner, banter, and cards. my face still hurts from laughing.

on a sadder note, i found out why the girl i like has been really awkward with me lately. it’s not good. now i can’t talk to her properly without wondering if she wants to talk to me or if she just wants space or whatever. i must find out, but i don’t know. i’ve been really down about it. plus i think she probably likes someone else, it was bound to happen. ugh, i hate love.

so yeah, i realise i haven’t touched this in over, well, forever. to be fair, i just haven’t had the time. there’s always something on somewhere, always places to go, people to meet, whatever. you know how it is. but i think it’s about time for the big old update about what’s going on in the fabulous world of adam. so here it goes, take one.

i’m not sure where i got up to last time, so i’ll just start from the beginning. yeah, here i am, in leeds. and it’s fantastic. it is a lot better than where i was living before. i’m in student halls, which you know, isn’t the BEST, but it does allow me to make a lot of friends who i’m told i will keep forever. yum. anyways, i HAVE made a lot of new friends. too many in fact, to the point where i can barely remember peoples name. i guess that’s what facebook is for in the end, heh. there’s been a lot of the typical student lifestyle: house parties, nights out etc. i have also become best friends with two of the best people in the world, a miss lauren marie and a mr ross. i hang around with these guys a lot during the week, and have made a lot of friends through them. they’ve helped me out a lot.

i’ve also finally started university. the class in all isn’t too bad really. made up of a typical bunch, as well as some cool guys and amazingly, two girls. i’m pretty good friends with one of them, and the other generally keeps herself to her friend, but to be fair i haven’t really made much of an effort to speak to them. i really should. other then that i’m pretty friendly with most people there, haven’t spoken to EVERYONE properly, but you know, there’s a few quite shy people. it’s quite difficult sometimes. we start proper things next week apparently.

so in the way of my love life. well, there’s a girl i really like. i shan’t mention any names, but it should be obvious. anyway,  she likes (or liked) me too, and it was great. but i probably made a big mistake by telling her i loved her. ever since it’s been a bit odd. to be fair on her, she has been really busy with university and stressing out about things. this is probably the cause of all this, but i can’t help feeling rejected, or as if she’s not interested anymore. i have no idea where i stand, but i haven’t got the nerve to ask her, because i don’t want to badger her about it all the time like i have done before. i dunno, i’m a lot better now then i was like two weeks ago when i got obsessed. i’m a lot more relaxed about it, and whatnot. the thing is, i’m perfectly aware that a relationship would never happen, but i dunno, i guess it’s been so long since i’ve truly liked a girl this way that i just enjoyed the feeling of being liked back, and didn’t want it to end. ah well. i’m hoping i’ll get to see her soon, and maybe i’ll get an answer in some form. who knows.

anyway! enough about that, i’m a student now, a love life should be a distant thought. in my spare time i’ve been doing some random drawings deeply inspired by david shrigley, as i’m sure you’ll agree. check them out here:

http://s182.photobucket.com/albums/x126/asyrus/art/

but yeah, that’s about it right now! i’ve been getting into a lot more bands since in leeds, i’m definitely well established within the indie scene. so that’s pretty cool. i am not sure what else to write about! so yeah.

what’s new.

well, i move to leeds in two weeks. everything is ready. and i’ve never been more excited in my life. i mean, where i live now, it’s absolutely terrible. not only is there nothing to do, it’s really unsafe. in one night i had a knife pulled out on me, bricks thrown out of me, and yeah. also, it’s just a shitty area to live. so i’m moving to leeds, which is fabulous. although i’m pretty broken up about leaving my friends, i’m sure it’ll be worth it.

i also started a new blog thing, where i post random scripts and stuff. it’s available here: http://dangerousgeometry.blogspot.com . i’m pretty proud of it, which is a first.

other then that, not a lot has happened really. or not a lot i’d like to talk about. yeah. they’ll be something more exciting here in two weeks.

oh, there’s a club night my friends are putting on, which will be excellent. they play MY sort of music, which is incredibly rare. there’ll be the likes of neutral milk hotel, magazine, casiotone etc. and it’ll be fantastic of course. i can’t wait. so yeah.

cool.

so i just got back from london, the fourth time i’ve been now. this time, it was me, craig, dom, richard, jake, tommy and ruben all attending. we got up to some crazy stuff, and i’ve completely fucked up my eye. like, there was a metal thing sticking out of a tree, and i bent down and whacked it straight off. i can still see out of it, but it’s all bloody and gooey. which isn’t nice. i’ll write a bit more about london later, but i’m tired now!